Shall I Blog?
I got this article from Kurt's website. It's very amazing to find such simliar feeling - tired and questioning: is this kind of life worthy of putting so much energe in it?
Go to: http://www.blogcn.com/user13/kurtzhao74/index.html for details.
4it's been nearly 2 months since the last blog posted. And, spending an hour to write a blog with my hearts was 4 months ago when i was still in Shanghai. Now, it's the 2nd day of the CNY. I was alone in the father-in-law's apartment in TJ, bewildered with the idea : should i give up blogging.
ever after i came back BJ, life turns to be very different from the days in SH. blog seems to be sth strange for me. blogging belongs to the life of being alone, rather than with a family. i could hardly find myself calmed down and sort out my minds from the messy daily life. life is pretty routine and it just goes in the way it's supposed to be. therefore, nothing worthy of writting down, or, more precisely, i dare NOT sit down and really think of the life. Starting from Jan, i have been engaged in the commercial negotiation for a 10M consulting deal, another milestone project for the firm's practice in China. I worked with partners and directors thoughout the time, OT till midnights, giving up weekends...Being a consultant for nearly 7 years, i m getting used to the heavy OT loaded, however, this time, i learn sth more ugly: office politics. Of coz, i was far not the greenbean graduated from college. Office politics is not a strange topic, but this time, i feel extremely frustrated. i am now seriously thinking of the very basic question: is this career path worthy of paying too much of my personal life ?
just watched the movie: shall we dance? Richard Gere is a pretty old fellow now...and, Jennifer Lopez is not so shinning as i once imagined. but the story is terrific. maybe it's also the time for me to think over my life after thirties or forties...(funny thing is: my wife happens to be lobbying me to attend Latin dance course as well). Latin is not my taste, rather, i am now thinking, should i continue to blog? or more precisely, should i continue to go around and around for the right path of life, or just pick up the one proved by the peers?
Life just sucks some times...i m already lost what i m gonna to say...fuck